Positive Reflection!

Zain Ahsan
4 min readOct 8, 2020

Sometimes, some events in your life are totally unplanned, like you never thought about the happening of them. To be honest, my life is full of it. Even my marriage was unplanned, having an opposite career, and many more. Some of them put very positive impacts on me and some did vice versa. But in the end, every event gave me learning.

Joining Amal was also an unplanned event. One of my school fellows referred me to do this fellowship from Amal Academy. And, here I am, just one or two weeks behind to complete my fellowship. Even within the first 3 weeks, I was planning to quit, but fortunately, I managed to stay and complete the task that I started. So, my journey at Amal is full of incidents that made a huge impact on my personality. But I would like to share an incident that completely changed my way of perception.

During my PW3, I was feeling very much exhausted due to the hectic job routine, coming home late, and then trying to concentrate on my fellowship. So in that PW, I had to write a blog. I was behind my deadline. So, considering my old practices, I copied most of the data from the internet just to complete my task. I wasn’t even aware of what consequences I’m going to face, I just did it. Just after a few days, my PM texted that she wants to talk to me. When I responded, she notified all the copied data and said that she wasn’t expecting such a type of irresponsible behavior from my side. I was shocked, not because I was caught, but due to the devotion, my facilitators were putting in my learning. So, I apologized and promised that it won’t happen again. I did receive a penalty. My half of the marks from that particular PW was cut. It was a drastic event for me, as I was at the top of the performance percentage in my previous two PWs. It caused me a heavy loss in my position, both numerically and personality-wise. But after this event, I’m not going to repeat it.

After this incident, I made changes in my personality. Firstly, not to opt for shortcuts at all. And secondly, paying attention and devoting myself to the tasks. So I started concentrating and devoting towards my PWs. I put all of my efforts to be the person, my facilitators want me to. I realized that it is time to accept the change.

This incident made me embarrassed as well as it changed my whole personality. I got good command on my courses as I was doing my PWs with full attention. I was helping my accountability partner, my learning group members, my circle members even all the fellows who reached me with anything. And I always urged them to concentrate and give time to their courses. I urged them to do everything by themselves. Even every member of my batch felt the difference, and I was happy.

Looking back, I always think about two things. First, it shouldn’t have happened. And second, Thank God it happened. The reason for the first statement was obviously the results I got and for the second, it rectified some of the most common errors I was carrying with my personality. So, this event changed my personality and perception both. Now I’m forbidding shortcuts and putting my efforts not only in my fellowship but in my daily routine too. And, I’m really thankful to my facilitators who stepped forward and gave me the chance to improve myself. God bless you!

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Zain Ahsan

Targeted to be an Educationist. MPhil Scholar at Riphah International University Faisalabad.